today is april 28th; my special day; the day i was born by beloved mom; the first day i breath on this earth...

alhamdulillah, thank god, i survived till today~!
i lived my life for 18 years,, yeay!! ;D

this year befday; x mcm thn last year, juz got three calls, one missed call, but a lot of msg n comments ;) trimekaseh bg ingatan anda yg tulus lagi eklas tuu...
bak kata atiqah, yup, im not undrage anymore!! yeay, terasa dewasa..haha. muni, i tunggu present dr jordan kay~

last year befday; plg best
sy bermandi air nila, berbedak tepung, dpt wishes befday yg hangat lg kuat + penuh kaseh syg, juga dpt present baju (still x pakai lagii, syg oii) haha

but still,, diz year, sambut sndirian dirumah, bertemankan laptop n enset, penghubung kasih sayang, hehe 8) diz year wish; jpa scholarship, xdpt present laen x kesah, aslkn dpt yg nie, ;(

wish me luck~!

.: me; 8teen years old girl :.

I shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised
It came without a word

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore, and that you’re not here anymore
otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised

Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken

Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I’ve become transparent, I’ve become a fool
and I cry just by looking at the sky

Without a word, separation finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
It tool my heart by surprised
To send you away unexpectedly
It came without a word

Without a word, love appears
Without a word, love vanishes
Like a fever I’ve had, maybe all I have to do is hurt for a while
Because in the end, the only thing that remains are scars

it felt awkward.....to write, again. i'm giving soul to my blog.

alhamdulillah,, thank god. i got the jpa interview. i'm happy n i'm scared. happy to know that i'm just a step closer to my dream. scared to realize that my future depends on the interview.

terkilan. i dont know that i'm diz stupid to let others determine my future. although it hurts to write this, but still.. i cant juz let it go. i keep thinking of it n it really makes me down. that bloody consultant really crack my nerves. bullshit!! i really hope ade hikmah yg tersembunyi di sebalik apa yg berlaku...cholmal~

lucky to have you, ana. i really appreciate it that night. the night we cry together juz because i'm a stupid girl who cant even say no to defend myself n my future. u truly are my dearest sis. watever might happen, i can always trust you 4 trusting myself. i'm juz not mature enaf to stand on my own...like what u said that night. thanx 4 d wise words.. i really need that. also to siha...u helped a lot honey~

if u dunno what i'm saying rite now, juz ignore it. diz is juz a lame luahan rase dr budak yg bernama azreen.

i just hope that i can be like the sun..always warm n happy without sadness surrounds me,,

ABC doesn't go any further

That's just no good

'Cause what's inside our hearts is different, right?

My youth's better than that

I wanna come deep inside that heat

I know it's gotta be you

I'm a naughty sun


.the end.